I’ve now been sober and/or in active recovery now for almost 4 years and going to social events with alcohol still catches my attention. Could it be because I am a full blown alcoholic, living with bipolar and a generalized anxiety disorder… Who knows. Today I am going to my first concert I’ve been to since I have been in active recovery and I am excited. I am going to be honest in saying that I am thinking since it is a Christian Concert, will they be serving alcohol and will I be able to smoke. Smoking cigarettes is one of my unhealthy addictions / habits that I use when I am stressed out or anxious. Either which way, I know today I am going to stay in active recovery.
Some of the strategies I am going to use today are:
- Staying Engaged with With Family – Often times when I was drinking, I would sneak off to go drink as many beers as I could while I was at the ‘bathroom’. Today I am going to stay engaged in the music festival and really stay in-tuned to my family. I will most likely just stay with them most of the time and not float off by myself, which is something I like to do when I am stressed or around a lot of people.
- Take Breaks – I plan on inviting my wife, daughter, son or my mom / dad to take a break with me when I am anxious or go explore the venue booths. I know like to be around my family and friends because I have nothing to hide or sneak, such as alcohol. I plan on taking breaks in between bands and splurge a little bit with food and sweet tea.
- Self-Awareness and Staying Positive – Last time I took my wife to a Chris Tomlin Concert, I wanted to leave early so I could get out of the parking lot first and get home to drink. Today, I am going to be aware of the fun my family is having, in-turn equaling self awareness. I plan on staying positive and letting myself enjoy the spirit of the festival. I plan to really engage in the music and listen to the lyrics kindheartedly. Music inspires me and this is a great opportunity to be inspired and motivated by song and the strength of the atmosphere.
- Asking for Help – I am comfortable enough now, where I can ask a loved one for help when I am feeling anxious, overwhelmed or having a difficult time with my addiction. Today, I will ask for help from a family member when I need it.