Difference between Living with an Addiction and Fighting an Addiction…
As a recovering alcoholic for 4 years and a guy that lived as an active alcoholic for 14 years, I know the difference between living with an addiction and fighting an addiction.
The first step to my life as a recovering alcoholic was acceptance. It took me several years to accept that I was an alcoholic and needed help. I was convicted of a DWI in 2003 year and ended up in jail, work-house and on house-arrest for an extended amount of time and it took that to get me to treatment the first time. I still didn’t understand the difference between living as an alcoholic and fighting alcoholism everyday. I now live as a recovering alcoholic 7 days a week / 365 days a year and it is because I know how to accept alcoholism as part of me.
The difference between living as a recovering alcoholic and a ‘dry-drunk’ is understanding how being in active recovery can provide you tremendous character strengths and self-awareness. Living as an recovering alcoholic has lead me to really finding out who my true-self is and has opened my mind to living outside of the box. I used to be so closed in with my addiction, I couldn’t express who I really was or my true-self for years, because I was afraid others would know about my addiction. I thought I was successfully hiding my addiction to alcohol, while others were watching my pain and suffering daily. I used to fight alcoholism and didn’t even know it. I would fight it in ways of hiding it from others, hiding my mental instability because I did not want anyone to even consider to take it away from me.
Now I live writing blogs, books, expressing myself and beliefs on radio talk shows and am able to live with my addiction because I took the first step 4 years ago and that was accepting alcoholism as part of my life. Throughout my journey, I have also turned over some of my fears and worries to my Higher Power, God. Without sobriety and living in active recovery, I would have not been able to truly accept my Higher Power, God into my life. I refer to my life now as having my “Chains broken and being set Free”. Without accepting my addiction as part of who I am and turning it over to my Higher Power, I would still be living shackled to a wall of despair and fear. With breaking the chains of addiction, but knowing it is still there, I can live freely.
What Chains are Holding You Down Today?
Are You Ready to Break Free from Those Chains and Accept Your True-Self?