Faith When I Fall

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Yesterday I wrote a post called “Road of Faith” and it was about how faith alone cannot and will not get you through recovery and/or adversity as a long term solution.  This post “Faith When I Fall” references the fact that at times when a person is in a fierce storm in life and rock bottom in near, sometimes faith and believing in yourself is all you have left to hold onto.  I have always loved the quote “when you reach the bottom of your rope, tie a knot”.  This quote and the use of other strategies has brought me out of spiraling down to the depths of nearing rock bottom or a relapse.  

When I was in treatment the second time, I was required to attend a small group for patients that have already been through a treatment center(s) and have relapsed.  This small group was essential to my current, long term recovery for almost 4 years.  I learned strategies of how to identify relapse behaviors and thoughts that may lead to relapse.  I learned that even having continued thoughts of using or relapsing and letting rationalizations build in the mind may lead to unhealthy decisions.  I also learned that when a person, such as myself, strong in my current recovery, is starting to fall, that I need to take immediate action such as reaching out for help from treatment alumni, attend a meeting, working a step in the 12 steps, reaching out to family, possibly asking trusted others if they have seen recent changes in my behaviors, etc. I take valued input from my wife, parents, AA meeting participants and my psychiatrist.  I will actually seek out my psychiatrist if I have radical changes in my behavior such as mania and depression from, but not limited to my bipolar and addiction disorder (my wife and family often help identify this as I mostly have trouble seeing these behaviors right away).  Also having faith in yourself and trusted loved ones in important in your successful recovery, which sometimes means just surviving.  I have been in active recovery for almost 4 years and there are still sometimes I catch myself just surviving and making it through the day, which I am proud of.  I also extend being proud of others that have been in recovery for 1 day, 1 month, 1 year, 5 years, 25 years, etc. In my recovery, taking those extra few minutes to extend gratitude and support to others for making it through the day, starting a new journey of recovery or continuing their life in recovery, taking action towards their mental health disorder, taking positive action towards anything that person is facing, is extremely important to me.

Recovery is about taking care of yourself first and supporting others second.  Let those who want to genuinely help you or support you, help and support you.  You may have to start tearing down some bricks in your wall that are protecting yourself from being hurt or humiliated, but it is worth it. 

Lyrics that Ring True from this Song:

  • “Give me strength when I’m standing and faith when I fall”
  • A little hope when I ain’t got none at all”
  • “Give me light up ahead on a journey”
  • “I know the rain is coming and it’s sure gonna pour, I know there ain’t no running from this kind of storm, It’s gonna get harder and harder, they keep on pushing through, I’m gonna wanna quit, so I’ll be counting on you”

“Faith When I Fall” – Kip Moore

I know it’s been a long time since the last time we talked
I know I’ve been a stranger and that’s all my fault
And asking you for anything don’t really seem right
But the winds of change are blowing so I’m begging you tonight

Give me love when I ain’t got nobody
A little hope when I ain’t got none at all
Give me light up ahead on a journey
Give me strength when I’m standing
And faith when I fall

I know the rain is coming and it’s sure gonna pour
I know there ain’t no running from this kind of storm
It’s gonna get harder and harder, they keep on pushing through
I’m gonna wanna quit, so I’ll be counting on you

To give me love when I ain’t got nobody
A little hope when I ain’t got none at all
Give me light up ahead on a journey
Give me strength when I’m standing
And faith when I fall

When the clouds start parting and the sun starts shining through
This time I wont forget, I wont forget about you

Give me love when I ain’t got nobody
A little hope when I ain’t got none at all
Give me love when I ain’t got nobody
A little hope when I ain’t got none at all
Give me light up ahead on a journey
Give me strength when I’m standing
And faith when I fall

Give me strength when I’m standing
And faith when I fall, yeah

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