“Redeemed” – Big Daddy Weave
Today marks my 4th birthday in active recovery and I have been more than sober these last four years. Approximately 3 – 3 1/2 years into my recovery from addiction, something changed in my heart and soul. I had a realization at this time that I do not need to continue to carry the heavy chains of addiction and I have come to truly understand within myself that being in active recovery is my way of life for eternity.
I had the knowledge in my mind that I could never drink again or I would lose everything, but did not necessarily feel it in my true self, as I do now. I am proud of myself for continuing to make strides in my recovery and to help others have a positive outlook on life (it doesn’t even have to relate to addiction in helping others). I have become more spiritually connected with others and myself as well. I now take the time to laugh with my wife, kids, students, baseball players I coach, parents, friends, co-workers, mother-in-law, sister-in-law, nephew (Zac / Emma) and I am beginning to be more connected with my brothers.
I have also become a better listener to my family, co-workers, students, baseball players, etc over the years of my recovery. I now have immense awareness of the bigger picture in life and not to sweat the small stuff. I am becoming much more aware of how blessed I am to have a wonderful wife, beautiful kids, supportive parents, being a brother, teacher, coach, friend, etc. For instance, there is more to life than winning a junior varsity baseball game as a coach, not taking the time to listen to my students or not taking the time to have authentic conversations with my wife at night. The list could go on and on, but I now address my time with people I care about as a precious commodity. I look at the time I spend with my wife and kids differently. It is a true blessing to spend time taking my boys to school, building Legos with my 6 year old, going to baseball practice with my 8th grade son, taking him to baseball tournaments with me, being asked by my oldest daughter to spend time with her looking at apartments for college, taking / picking up my 6th grade daughter from cheer practice, spending time with my beautiful wife talking while she takes her bath and taking the time to have wonderful conversations my parents when I see them.
With all of these realizations over the last 4 years, I have been redeemed from a life of alcoholism I experienced for over 10 years of my life. I press on with the strength / power to overcome any obstacle that is placed in my path and stay grateful for all of the wonderful things in my life. Above and below this passage, you will find songs that are an inspirational part of my life as Music, Faith, Hope and Love fuels my soul.
Have a Blessed Day
“Press On” – Building 429
“What Faith Can Do” – Kutless
“Listen to the Sound” – Building 429
“We Won’t Be Shaken” – Building 429