Today is the beginning of my work week, as I had yesterday off because of Memorial Day to Remember the Brave Men and Women who have Served and who continue to Serve to Protect this Great Land (United States of America.
I woke up at 4:40 AM and have been sitting on my front porch listening to music since around 4:50 AM. As a teacher, even thinking about all of the paperwork and things I have to teach / get done the last couple weeks of school can be overwhelming, that’s only if I let it be overwhelming.
As a teacher for thirteen years, I have the experience to, in theory, take one situation, deadline, event at a time and attempt to stay balanced. As a recovering alcoholic, the end of the school year (as a teacher) is one of my toughest times to stay focused on my sobriety and recovery. I need to continue to keep my eye on traveling down my journey of good health, great relationships and serenity in all my endeavors (guided by myself and my morals, logic, family, etc).
‘Feels Just Like it Should’ is a song that came up on my playlist this morning and I have listened to it several times. This song and other songs by Pat Green and Cory Morrow tend to get my spirits moving in forward motion. I believe life is full of miracles and a miracle that exists everyday is that my family and I are in good health. I read a story posted by a friend of mine yesterday on Facebook about my friends brother finding out he had terminal cancer and has 3 – 6 months to live. When I read this, it sickened me and made me feel noxious. I felt and continue to feel heartache for her family, brother, his family and my friend. I almost immediately did a mental inventory of the people and things (not materialistic) I am thankful / grateful for.
I need to start taking more inventory of the people in my life I am thankful for and the events in my life that have happened and future events that happen to allow me to be the person I am. I have a twin brother that lives in Minnesota and we used to be extremely close before I moved to Texas 10 years ago. I want and need to build a better relationship with him and my older brother. It is definitely a two way street, but I need to start making a better effort to start down that road.
After starting my inventory of life, today I am going to take action and reach out to them. I am going to let my twin brother and my older brother know how thankful and grateful I am to have them in my life. I am also going to let my wife, kids, parents and some co-workers know how much I appreciate them.
Some Questions to Ask Yourself:
- If you were to take an inventory of your life right at this moment, what would it reflect?
- Who are the people you are grateful / thankful for and how have they changed your life?
- Who would you like to or need to build a better relationship with, even if it means swallowing some of your pride?
- Why are these people and/or events in your life so important to you and how would your life be different without them?
- What is on your list, mental or physical, that you are going to or would share with the people in your life?
- What can you do today to guide yourself or allow yourself to FEEL JUST LIKE IT SHOULD?