It Blows in, Without a Sound – Addiction, Drepression, and Recovery

Martin Zellar hit it out of the park with this song about depression. The lyrics are insanely true, and this mental health disorder, is explained well through this song. Take it easy, and Enjoy the Ride Life Gives You Every Day! 

Martin Zellar – Low Road

It blows in without a sound
Like paper in a puddle you break down
Then it’s gone, and emptiness sets in
You’d give anything if you could cry again

Yeah, I know the doctors say
That they have these pills to take your blues away
Still it’s hard, I can’t pretend
That it wouldn’t be like killing off a friend

Yeah, it’s strange, but can’t you see
It’s there, it’s always been a part of me
And I’m scared to let go
Of a big part of the only me I know

Build it up and tear it down
In this kingdom of dark dreams I wear the crown
Every life, every face that I see
Has a sad story that overpowers me

In our hearts we must trust
Or our dreams will turn to stone or start to rust
Please hold on, and don’t let go
I’ll do my best to never let it show

It blows in without a sound
Like paper in a puddle you break down

Make this Place Your Home

A heartfelt post from a blog was recently posted, and this song immediately came to mind.  The post was about a man that was struggling with medication for anxiety, and how he felt the intense anxiety becoming overbearing.  In reading the post, not to many details of what type of medication was being withheld from him, and the reason why it was.

After reading that post, a song a co-worker and friend, introduced to me came to mind.  The song is called ‘Home’ by Phillip Phillips and the lyrics: “settle down, it’ll all be clear
Don’t pay no mind to the demons, they fill you with fear, the trouble—it might drag you down, if you get lost, you can always be found” intensely became clear in my head.  Specifically remembering the word ‘demons’ in the lyrics brought thoughts of how every person has a different demon(s) they are facing in life.  Treat people with kindness, because you never know what battle they may be facing.

Demons can present themselves in many different forms, and fashions.  Anxiety, addiction, depression, abuse, death, are only a handful of demons that may be filling your ‘neighbor’ with fear.  It is easy to say, that each and every person has control over their own mind, but is this really true.  There are psychological disorders, and addiction disorders that are predisposed, chemical imbalances in the brain that cause these disorders.

A person may say, well that person has the clear choice to deal with it, but it isn’t that easy, especially when the person is currently not able to appropriately rationalize with themselves.  If a person is blamed for having a psychological disorder, then others should be blamed for developing cancer, which is clearly asinine.  Life style may affect psychological disorders, and create mental disturbances, such as drug addiction.  It is clearly stated, and determined that if a person smokes meth, it will cause brain damage.  This is a proven fact, and smoking meth, will change the physical and chemical design of the brain and body.  Drug and alcohol addictions clearly happen because of chemical imbalances, psychological imbalances, and methods a person is using to face adverse situations in their life.  I grew up in an upper class family, and my parents provided my brothers and I a wonderful life full of love, faith, and hope.  There weren’t too many worries in life, but I still became an alcoholic.  In my experience in two treatment centers, I met men that had millions of dollars, had beautiful families, outstanding careers, and they were in there sitting next to me.  Addiction and psychological disorders have no boundaries.  I have had anxiety all of my life, and my way of self medicating was to drink alcohol.  Alcohol was my medication, and tool to face all adversity in my life, and to enhance / celebrate all of the ‘good’ things in my life.

Everyone deserves to have a peaceful ‘home’ in their mind.  This is a place where you live everyday, and can’t escape from.  As a person would fix the roof of their house after it was torn off by a tornado, people need to have the tools to ‘fix’ their mind when it is torn apart by adversity and pain.  At the beginning, during, and at the end of each day, you must make your mind a home, not a house you exist in.  If you are reading this, and need help to make your ‘place’ (body) a home, seek professional help.  In your exploration, the journey starts with small steps, which may include writing your thoughts in a journal, sharing thoughts with a loved one, participating in a chat online, attending an online AA meeting, actually walking into a meeting, making a doctors appointment, etc.

It’s not going to be easy, but it will be worth it!!!!

 

“Hold on to me as we go
As we roll down this unfamiliar road
And although this wave (wave) is stringing us along

Just know you’re not alone
‘Cause I’m gonna make this place your home

Settle down, it’ll all be clear
Don’t pay no mind to the demons
They fill you with fear
The trouble—it might drag you down
If you get lost, you can always be found

Just know you’re not alone
‘Cause I’m gonna make this place your home

Ooo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo. Oo-oo-oo-oo [2x]
Aaa-aa-aa-aa-aa-aa-aa. Aa-aa-aa-aaaaaa [4x]

Settle down, it’ll all be clear
Don’t pay no mind to the demons
They fill you with fear
The trouble it might drag you down
If you get lost, you can always be found

Just know you’re not alone
‘Cause I’m gonna make this place your home

Lightening Crashes

Live was a popular band from the 1990’s that broke apart in 2009 when the lead singer, Ed Kowalczyk, left the band because of musical differences.  I have created a playlist highlighting their music, as it relates to my life in recovery.  I interpret their music in many different ways and view it as inspirational pieces of art.

Enjoy the Music.

I Alone

Lightening Crashes

Dolphin’s Cry

Heaven